Waiting Game

I seen a commercial today that said that pregnancy is all about waiting. You wait 9 months for labor and then hours for the baby to deliver, well I think that they forgot about the other waiting-- the waiting to get pregnant. To those of us who have to wait, try, and desire for their baby, the waiting for the little pink lines is excruciating.

You wait for the the right moment in your life
You wait for the first few months to excitedly wait for your period to see if you're pregnant
You wait for the doctor's appointments to figure out why you're not "normal"
You wait for the test results
You wait for the prescriptions
You wait for the two blue lines on the ovulation tests
You wait for your period again
You wait for 3 long minutes for the pregnancy test because you're tired of waiting for your period
You wait for your period to start the medication again for the two pink lines are unattainable.
You wait, and wait, and wait...and time and time again you wait for uncontrollable failures.

So for those people who wait the oh-so-long 9 months for your baby put yourselves in the other half's shoes. The shoes of the infertile couple who want what you so effortlessly achieved more than you can possibly even imagine. Having a baby is exciting and people should be excited, but I really don't feel bad for your long 9 months. Enjoy the experience and the short and few times in your life that you get to experience what less than half the world will ever get the chance too.

Now I am waiting for the end of the year. If we are not pregnant by the end of December I am going to talk to AJ about getting to vericosele surgery to increase his sperm count, hopefully we will not have to take that step, but if that's what's stopping us from achieving the "9 month wait," then we need to fix that.

Infertility and waiting can take it out of the most patient and understanding couple, but imagine because impatient and type-A and not being able to wait the wait that beings the ultimate gift.